… Reset, Renew
I am not a fast writer. I have not yet streamlined my workflow for creating. I start in a notebook, start typing into a blogpost and then write a whole other story once I get there. With many pauses and self doubts along the way, the publish button may take a while to press.
I share this because I started this post on Groundhog's Day, and am now here hoping to complete it on the Lunar New Year (Feb 12th). I am justifying the delay of my "new year" posts as these are days of inspiration to hit the reset button and set intentions for what lies ahead - even if that connotation for one holiday came from an early/mid 1990s movie. And after the ups and downs of January 2021 (enough said), I am now in the headspace to reset and manifest what the future holds.
In my reflection last month, I came to realize that a good bit of what I had "planned" to do actually did happen - which basically boils down to a career move and two trips (which I hope to recap in future posts). There is, however, one hope that seems to elude me - which I pinned on my 2020 vision board as Hot Guy with a Boat.
Despite this visualization being somewhat tainted by Alex Moffat's SNL portrayal of a similarly named character, I still carry this manifestation into 2021. It's about finding the emotion that I conjure up from a random daydream:
It's a beautiful sunny day, barely a cloud in the sky, and I am out on the water on some kind of speedboat, with a bunch of people I know and like, including a somewhat vague-faced man that I have established a romantic connection. As the wind throws my hair around and as the boat bounces over another one's wake, I look over to see him looking at me, our eyes lock and we just smile at each other - a smile of pure connection and joy.
That's it (womp, womp)... and that feeling I get when I think about this scenario fully envelops me. And in following the laws of attraction (and my own clever rhyme scheme): what you feel you make real.
So as many around the world celebrate the lunar new year, I am taking time to reset my intentions for the months ahead. Ultimately, it all falls under renewing my drive for connection, as this isolated world of the past year has become perhaps detrimentally comfortable. Make new friends, and be a better friend to those I have. Renew my energy for taking chances, putting myself out there and saying yes. Take small journeys and big adventures - and open my eyes, ears, and heart to those I meet along the way. Connect and learn from them, and grow with each interaction... and document these lessons through blogging and photography.
And find that hot guy with a boat.